“Man
cannot discover new oceans, unless he has the
courage
to lose sight of the shore.”
Andre Gide
Batten down the
hatches, everyone. I’m starting a new book and am chock full of maritime
metaphors, as is often the case when I’m sitting down to that ever intimidating
blank screen.
For me, starting a
new book is similar to getting on the SS Minnow with Gilligan and the Skipper.
There’s a very good chance that rough water will be forthcoming, and a
shipwreck will more likely than not set things back. Most writers know this
going into a new project. Those of us who plot, clutch our trusted outlines to
our chest, even though we will ditch it midway and replot the entire second
act. Many of us do all the laundry, make meals to freeze so we can hit the
computer when we come home for our day jobs. Those who are pantsers (write
their stories without an outline), sit down chock full of ideas and let the
story unfold. I take my hat off to these writers. If I tried to “pants” my way
through a book, I’d surely wind up in hospital. No matter your style, the path
to completing that coveted first draft is a bumpy, stormy, turbulent ride of
joy, tears, and often paralyzing self-doubt.
Writing fiction –
and learning to write fiction – takes a long time for most people. I recall an
essay by Ira Glass (of This American Life fame). I’m paraphrasing, but his take
on writing –or any creative endeavour – was that you start out as a beginner
with good taste developed from the books you read. You decide to write your own
book, finish it, and realise that it is not nearly up to the standards of the
books that you have read and enjoyed. You write yet another book. Yes, you see
improvement, but your sophisticated taste reminds you that your work is still
not quite up to snuff. Most people give up at this point. Ira Glass’ point –
and I wholeheartedly agree with him – is that you shouldn’t give up! Keep
writing. Keep painting. Keep making movies. If you keep practicing, eventually
your ability will catch up to your taste.
Here’s Ira’s
essay, for those of you who are interested:
Nobody
tells this to people who are beginners, I wish someone told me. All of us who
do creative work, we get into it because we have good taste. But there is this
gap. For the first couple years you make stuff, it’s just not that good. It’s
trying to be good, it has potential, but it’s not. But your taste, the thing
that got you into the game, is still killer. And your taste is why your work
disappoints you. A lot of people never get past this phase, they quit. Most
people I know who do interesting, creative work went through years of this. We
know our work doesn’t have this special thing that we want it to have. We all
go through this. And if you are just starting out or you are still in this
phase, you gotta know it’s normal and the most important thing you can do is do
a lot of work. Put yourself on a deadline so that every week you will finish
one story. It is only by going through a volume of work that you will close
that gap, and your work will be as good as your ambitions. And I took longer to
figure out how to do this than anyone I’ve ever met. It’s gonna take awhile.
It’s normal to take awhile. You’ve just gotta fight your way through.
--Ira
Glass
I have written
four books – book five is now underway – and each story has taught me something
deep and meaningful about my own place in this crazy world. Has my writing
ability caught up to my taste? Not even close. But I’m definitely getting
there. When I’m two hundred pages in and the usual questions come burgeoning
forth (Is this book horrible? What if no one likes it? What if my publisher
doesn’t want it? What if this book ends my career?), the only thing to do is
keep writing. When I feel like I’m in the middle of a stormy sea, far away from
the shore, I dig into the story knowing that the words will keep me afloat. When
I push away from the dock, I am more than ready to get lost at sea. I know that
only through being lost can one truly appreciate the magnificence of finding
the way. And I am most definitely not giving up!
Who’s
starting a new project? Would love to hear about your process and how you deal
with ups and downs.
Cheers,
Terry